When Everyone's Favourite Lesbian Is Weird (Allegedly) - Mattie & Only Jayus

Didn't you cheat on your ex-girlfriend? No, I got cheated on with a minor and y'all still support them. Just because you're a lesbian does not mean you get to talk to underage girls. You're not different. You're not misunderstood. You're just creepy. Before anyone says, "Why? Why do we keep having this conversation?" Because it keeps happening. That's why. And if you know, you know. But every couple of months, there's a story about a grown adult in our community being weird with a teenager or having a full-blown relationship with them. >> Beyonce's baby brother may be homeless. That's messy. >> Selena Gomez fired her parents. That's messy. >> And Nene walked off the set on Dancing with the Stars. That's messy, too. Let's get this mess started. It's time for Hot Topic. >> You're finally going to admit the cheating on me with that one. They blamed alcohol. They blamed depression. They blamed my parents' divorce and they blamed the stress of meeting Joe Biden. I wish I was making that up. >> I thought we canled Only Jay. Something about that hole just don't sit right with me for some reason. And that's okay. But I want to know. I need physical proof of what she's saying about Maddie because Maddie is my favorite little lesbian, right? And I need to know. >> I'm sorry. With what was the I can't wait to take you on a second date when you turn 18. A second date. Wait a minute. Wait a minute. I remember Maddie saying, "I can't wait to take her on a date when she turns 18." A second date? You mean like what you did with Amara? >> So, I want to start this off by saying that I never wanted to give any attention to the blatant lies that are being told about me right now. But I really cannot stay quiet any longer about the serious accusations that are being made against me. Thank you so much to absolutely everybody who waited for my response before coming to any conclusions about these accusations. >> Wait, dude. How old are you? This girl is almost 15. I don't know if you could do math, but that means 14 years old. Said, "Shut the [ __ ] up." I don't know. I'm probably going to [ __ ] you up. You're going to have daddy issues. Uh-oh. Damn. Okay. There are internet downfalls and then there is the only jail situation which honestly feels like its own category at this point. Isabella Aila born April 12, 1999 in Las Vegas, Nevada, did not just have a little viral moment that faded away. They built what looked like a serious long-term career before they even turned 23. At their peak, they had nearly 90 million followers on Tik Tok, which is not small and which did not come on accidentally. Literally, they were known as the psychology facts girl, the one who would fire off quick explanations, random social hacks, and oddly specific facts that made you feel like you were learning something in under 60 seconds. Really weird human body facts that I can guarantee you didn't know. If you're a person with a vagina, you should probably try and do some kegles every now and then because if the muscles and ligaments that you have down there aren't strong enough, it's been known for the uterus to just fall out. Men can lactate and produce milk just like women can. Most guys won't admit it, but it's a lot more common than you think, and it's usually triggered by starvation. If you decide to hold in a fart, that gas doesn't just go away. It's absorbed by your intestines, which goes into your bloodstream, which eventually reaches your lungs until you breathe out the fart. If you earned $100,000 a day since the day Christ was born till now, you still wouldn't be as rich as Jeff Bezos. We actually know how to make car doors silent when you shut them. But it freaks people out and makes them think it's still open, which means that every car door sound was engineered to sound that way. Nike's famous slogan, just do it, was actually inspired by the last words of a murderer on death row. >> And for a while, it worked beautifully for them. Brands wanted in. Tinder partnered with them. Caseify partnered with them. They landed a Netflix podcast deal, which is not something that you stumble into by mistake. And on paper, it looked like they had cracked the code of being both educational and entertaining in a way that platforms reward. They had the audience, they had the deals, they had the visibility, and they had a kind of upward momentum that most creators spend years chasing. But underneath the created persona, there were cracks that kept widening instead of being fixed. Old racist messages resurfaced and they were not vague or ambiguous. >> In my past, I said disgusting things to people. And I am so ashamed of myself for using racist rhetoric and derogatory language to hurt others because I knew what that word meant and I understood the power behind it. But I said it anyway because it was the meanest thing that I could think of. And I am so sorry to everyone, but especially to those in the black community because only you guys can forgive me for this and there is no excuse and there are no justifications for what I said and you guys deserve better. People accused them of stealing content from smaller creators. There were donation promises made in the middle of backlash that later became points of contention when people started asking where the money went. Every time a controversy cooled down, another one flare up and the pattern became so hard to ignore. It stopped feeling like isolated mistakes and started feeling like something that was way deeper. What made it worse was not just what came out, but how it was handled. Apologies felt rushed or defensive. Clarifications often raised more questions than they answered. >> Today's episode of what are people mad at me for now? NOT CHECKING MY EMAILS IN A TIMELY MANNER. >> And the trust that built their platform slowly eroded. And once an audience starts watching you with suspicion instead of support, it is very hard to win that back. Over time, only Jos did not just become this controversial person. They became someone that people actively disliked and it was not how you would dislike Logan Paul or Jake Paul. There were threats, there were timelines, there were detailed breakdowns and people brought up receipt and the story just shifted from, oh, this person messed up to, oh my god, is this who this person is? I can handle a lot. You don't get to be only Jay still posting online without being able to handle a lot. But I'm going to ask knowing full well it's probably just going to invite more in. But I'm going to try and ask for these type of comments to stop. And just when it felt like every angle of that story had already been dissected and a new chapter unfolded, their 2-year relationship with fellow creator Marty Westbrook became public. And for a while, it seemed like a soft reset. Then came the breakup. Then came the allegations of infidelity. Then came claims that were far more serious and far more disturbing, including accusations involving minors. >> Didn't you cheat on your ex-girlfriend? No, I got cheated on with a minor and y'all still support them. >> At that point, the conversation moved beyond influencer drama and it went into this territory that just made people feel genuinely uncomfortable. So when people talk about only JS now, they're not just talking about a creator who massively fell off. They're talking about someone whose rise was massive, whose controversies stacked up over time and whose personal life became entangled with accusations that shifted everything. Influencers and creators, they get cancelled. But when it comes to Onida's situation is not a simple cancel and move on story. This situation is very layered. is very messy and is still being debated till today. But that being said, let me introduce myself. Hi guys. So, this is editing Drew here. I'm here to tell you guys that for the duration of this video, yes, my teeth is going to be stained with lipstick. I didn't realize that my teeth were stained with lipstick until I was about to edit and I'm like scrolling through the entire timeline and I'm seeing that my teeth is red. Okay, so cuz I know somebody's going to point it out in the comment section. Let me do it first before you guys point it out. Okay, thank you so much. I am so tired. I finished recording like two and a half hours ago and literally I'm so tired. But today is Thursday and I hope to release this footage out by Saturday hopefully. And I need to finish editing by tomorrow cuz I have a very busy day on Saturday. But for the teeth issue, I just want to tell you, yes, throughout the entirety of this video, my teeth is red. Please don't point it out in the comment section or you can. I really don't care. But yeah, let's get straight into the video. Hi guys, my name is Joel and welcome to my channel. On this channel, I speak about whatever I want to speak about whether trendy or not. I do deep dives, commentary, literally I speak about whatever my interest. So if that is your vibe, kindly like, share, subscribe if you care, and I really do hope you care. Before I go in, I literally had to dig into the archives for this one because back in 2024, I actually wrote a whole deep dive on Ollie jails after I dropped my video called I have ADHD in your D virgin. Excuse every dumb thing. And in that video, I touched on only JSOs and I wanted to do a deep dive about them, but for some whatever reason, the same way a bunch of my other drafts are just sitted there unrecorded on my laptop, I actually never got around to recording it. So technically this conversation has been waiting but the second I saw only JS speak again. I knew I had to go back to work and I had to pull the files dusty off. And let me tell you something I have been tracking this new development like it's my full-time job. I have been locked in. I have refreshed refresh refresh and the more I saw the more I was like oh oh no because bro we need to talk. So let's get into it. Also only Jos used to use they them pronouns but recently they changed their pronouns on their Instagram to they her and him. In 204 they were using they them pronouns. So my script is filled with they them. And when I updated it from due to the recent events that's common I refer to them as they them. But for consistency I'm going to use mainly they them. I have tried so many times over the past few years to explain my choice of gender pronouns to y'all on this app but so many people still seem confused. So, this is my last and final attempt to do so because I think I finally got it. Okay. I am she, her, but only in the way that you refer to a boat. And and I'm I'm he him, but really only in the way that you see a dog walking across the street. And I'm they them because I know you can sense that there are multiple personalities fighting for control. If that makes sense. Okay. Also, if you're new here, sorry I'm rambling. Let me quickly explain how I do things. When I cover a topic, I start from the very beginning. Yes, some of you already know parts of the story. I know, but I am not a tea page. I don't just jump in, shout the headlines, and then dip. I do deep dive. So, I'm not about to skip straight to February 26 about on JS just because some of you have been online. Okay, every time I post, not every time, sometimes when I post, there'll be comments like, "Oh, we know this already." Okay, maybe you do. I've even seen it on Reddit. Someone was like, "Oh, she's saying what we don't already know." Okay, maybe you do. But does the next person know who Isabella is? Exactly. Literally, I build context. I connect dots. I take my time. And don't worry, I'm still fun. The OG's on this channel already know how I get down and they say that's why they are here. So, just relax. Let me cook. Watch it through. And I'm going to end your subscription and your support. Okay. So, let's get into this video. Let's start with part one. The rise of only JS. Isabella Aa known online as Only JS and late Sabella Rose was born on April 12th, 1999, making her an Aries. So, she was born in Las Vegas, Nevada, and their early life was not smooth or stable. They were one of 11 children, and they even posted a video talking about it. And I would just play it here. Anyways, like they have so many siblings. It all started when my mom met a guy and she had my older brother. And then she met another guy and had my other older brother. And then she finally met my dad and had me. But then my dad met my stepmom and had my little sister and then another sister and then another sister. And then they had my brother and then another sister and then another brother and then my sister and then another brother. Hi, I'm Bella and my life is [ __ ] insane. But anyways, they have said that they entered foster care at the age of 16 after coming out as gay and they remained in extended care until they were 21. They moved between homes during that time which meant that they had to grow fast and they had to largely figure things out on their own. >> How long were you in foster care for? >> From 16 to 18 technically, but I did extended foster care until I was 21. >> What does being in foster care entail when you're like older and you're like 16 versus being like 8 years old? a lot of different house and like I got put into this one house. They didn't speak any English. I had to have a four-year-old translate to the mom to me like what time I have to go to school. And then I got moved to a different house across town and they were like, "We're not driving you to school. You have to walk." So, I had to like walk across town to go to school and that was weird. They like tried to get me to sell drugs several times and I got moved to a >> different Wait, hold on. How do they make try to make you sell drugs? >> They don't They're not going to give you your foster care money if you don't sell what you have to sell. >> What the [ __ ] Is it a business for them? Because I've heard horror stories like that, right? >> They don't those people don't foster care. I'm sure they don't. We got them out. The name Jos comes from an Indonesian word that refers to a joke so bad that you end up laughing. Anyway, it sounded quirky and also internet savvy, which fits the brand that they were building at that time. >> Bella Avala, I just learned your full name. >> Yes. >> What I know you as is your handle, which is only JS. >> Most people know me as that. Yeah, >> they don't even think I had like they thought my name was JS. >> Yeah. What's the H? What is it? >> JS is an Indonesian word for somebody so unfunny you can't help but like laugh along with them anyway. I thought it fit. >> I think what helped me a lot was knowing like JS is more of a character online and so if people like JS, they like the character. If they hate JS, they hate the character. They don't actually like know me. They don't know Bella. And that was a good separation to have in my mind that I know a lot of other creators don't do because they're just themselves. But >> JS is very much a character. >> Wow. >> Versus like who I am in real like people meet me, they're like >> you're kind of different. I'm like I'm not screaming fun facts in your face. >> They started posting on Tik Tok 2019 while working at Best Buy in Las Vegas. But many of their early videos were filmed in their work uniform. They would stand in front of the camera and deliver quick fun facts in the mirror doing it in a fast, very confident tone. And they still do it till today. But they had not started doing psychology facts at this time. People began calling them the female vulgar Bill Nye, the science guy. And when they dropped their first psychology fact video, they gained 60,000 followers on Tik Tok. And the next day they hit 1 million. They reached 5 million in 2020. And when Best Buy corporates found their account, they were reportedly told to remove the videos or lose their job. And around this time, I think they had like 250,000 subscri not subscribers. I think I wrote this they had 250,000 followers. So they listened to Best Buy and then they deleted the videos but they were fired anyway and after that they focused on content creation full-time. A lot of you may be asking the same question as I am and that's how how did this happen? I don't know but I can show you how it started. I downloaded Tik Tok in September of 2018 and just watched it for months. Posted my first video in March of 2019 and then kind of got addicted to the attention. Was nearing 10K around August of 2018 and that bio still holds true. I'm I'm probably taller than you. I don't really know what I'm going for, but I guess I'm having fun. Like, what? This is around the time I started bragging to people that I was famous on Tik Tok. Made 100K in September of 2018. I don't [ __ ] know how, but I remember I bought Chipotle that day. This is around the time I got fired from Best Buy for making Tik Toks. And this is all still pre-sychology fact days, but I was still doing like fun facts in a mirror. So, people called me the female vulgar Bill Nye the Science Guy. This is on October, a couple hours after I posted the first psychology tricks video. This was the next day. 2 million, we got dark mode. 2.5 million I got verified. Finally changed my [ __ ] profile picture. Hit 5 million in March of 2020. Still didn't change the profile picture. Hey, I changed it and then it disappeared. I don't get it, but thanks. Their growth was so quick because by September 2019, they had reached 100,000 followers. A month later, they passed 1 million. And the content was simple and easy to consume. Short psychology facts, social observations, small behavioral tricks. One of their most viral claims was that you can tell who someone likes in a group by just watching who they look at when they laugh. >> Psychology tricks that I learned in my general site class last year that I know work because I use them. People tend to get really uncomfortable in silence and they subconsciously try to fill this by talking. This works especially well if you're in a verbal altercation with somebody and they're kind of being an ass. Just don't say anything. Let themselves dig a deeper hole and listen to the word vomit spew out of their mouth. You can tell which one of your friends likes who by just paying attention a little bit more. If you're in a group and something funny happens or somebody tells a joke, people tend to be laughing while looking at the person they like most. I also want to apologize in advance if you do this and you notice that nobody is making eye contact with you. This last one helped me out a lot when I worked in customer service. If somebody is yelling at you or being a dick, just be like, "Um, excuse me. You have a little uh you have a little something in your teeth." This makes them feel very self-conscious and it stops them in their tracks every time. If you guys like this, I'll do a whether every idea was fully backed by research was not the point for people who were watching only JS. It felt interesting and very sharable. They built this reputation as someone who could explain human behavior in a way that felt very accessible. People followed them because they felt like they learned something without having to sit through a lecture. In October 2019, they launched a YouTube channel under the same name and began posting longer videos. Topics included the mean of life, aliens, and hypnosis. And these videos performed well. By early 2020, they had secured a Netflix podcast deal called Know It All. They had brand partnerships with Tinder and Castify. And at their peak, they had 12 million followers on Tik Tok and close to 5 million subscribers on YouTube. From the outside, they looked established and successful. But behind this public image, there were problems that were building up. There were accusations of plagiarism and there were old racist messages that resurfaced and their responses to criticisms were often seen as defensive. The image they had built started to weaken as more information came out. That leads us to part two, the controversies. In July 2020, OnJos accused Tik Tocker Jonathan Moss of copying one of their videos word for word. They posted on Twitter saying creators should be called out for stealing content. It was very direct and it was very public. And Jonathan responded just as publicly and showed that both of their videos were based on the same business insider article that he had found online. He had not copied them and they had both used the same source. >> So only Jay has put on her Instagram. This dude copied my content more than once and when she cried me out, I threatened her and then delete the comments. Nope. Her video was in the bathroom. Mind was outside and I found the content off Google. What does your birth mark say about you? And I found it and I was like, oh snap, this would be cool. And then somebody sent me her video and I was like, yeah, she made it. And then she got really aggressive. I said, hey, you made it first. That's fine. But then it started to get really bad. Like people started sending me stop threatening and taking only Jay's content. You know what I'm saying? And I was like, wait a minute. What what what is this? I never threatened her. I just said she gaslighted her fans as in making her seem like the victim in a lot of things that she does wrong. She said, "Show me where I gaslighted my fans." And I said, "I won't take an advice from a 14-year-old girl." And she started to go off. She even made a duet and then deleted it after I said I found it on Google. >> People immediately questioned why they were accusing someone else when their own content relied heavily on existing articles. That accusation just pushed people to start checking their older videos. Once people began comparing scripts side by side, the similarities were so hard to ignore. Their first YouTube video, God is not real, closely matched a Reddit post from an atheism subreddit. The structure, the phrasing, the arguments were nearly identical. The Reddit post was not credited even though other sources were listed in the description. More examples surfaced. segments from a Netflix related project mirrored writing from comp tech Forbes and LinkedIn articles. Several Tik Toks were traced back to Reddit threads and blog post and in multiple cases the wording was so close that it did not look accidental. The situation escalated again in early 2024 when a creator named Everyday Alex noticed that a workplace advice video posted by only JSO was almost identical to one that he had already made. When he called them out, they said both of them had used the same Reddit post as inspiration. Alex said that he had never seen such a post and offered $10,000 to charity if anyone could find it. You all have so much money. I'm not even going to lie. But anyways, only JS then went live and claimed that they had a screenshot from 2020 proving the Reddit post had existed. On live, they showed an image on their phone as evidence and Alex reviewed it and pointed out that the screenshot resolution was 1290x 2796 pixels which matches the iPhone 15 Pro Max. The phone was released in late 2023. The screenshots could not have been taken in 2020 on a device that did not exist. Further digging suggested that they had posted the script themselves to a small subreddit and they deleted it and then screenshotted it to make it look like an older source. It was also discovered that the script had been posted twice because the first version contained typos. After that, the discussion moved beyond sloppy sourcing and people were no longer debating whether they forgot to credit someone. They were questioning whether evidence had been fabricated to cover up copying. Once that narrative took hold, it overshadowed everything else that they had built. On February 9th, 2021, a Tik Tocker named Freak the Gemini posted screenshots of Instagram messages that only JS had sent in 2016. The messages were aggressive and they were hateful. They told another creator to go [ __ ] themselves. And they said that they hoped that their parents got cancer and that they hoped that everyone they loved would die. Then they used the hard rn word and called the person an nword lover because that person was dating someone black. Honestly, this is not something that someone would casually speak about or call someone. This was targeted because the slug was used specifically to insult someone for being in a relationship with a black person. Another creator set says explains why people reacted so strongly. They said that there are levels to saying the N word. Singing along to a song is one thing, but calling someone the N word is worse. Using the hard R is worse. Again, calling someone an N-word lover is another step further. A lot of people agreed with that breakdown because it captured how intentional the insult felt. No, here's the thing. She didn't just say the N word. It's not like she was mouthing it and said the words in a song. There are levels to it. There's the white influencer dancing and then mouthing the words with an a at the end. There's calling someone the n-word. There's calling someone the n-word with a hard R at the end. And then there's calling someone a n. A slur is a slur, but to insult someone for being in a relationship with a black person by calling them a n it does not get any worse than that. It is so hateful and it is so violent, bro. A forced fake watered down apology will not cut that. And after days of your fans and other black creators begging you to address it, chow. For you to be as intelligent as you are with your little psychology facts, that is some dumb [ __ ] 4 days to address it. During Black History Month, I said disgusting things to people and I am so ashamed of myself for using racist rhetoric and derogatory. >> You know what? I'm not going to lie. This one actually kind of hurts a little bit. When I first signed up for the Tik Tok app, Bella was one of the very first creators that I ever saw on my for you page. I remember the moment a few months ago when she commented on one of my videos and then followed me. I genuinely was honored because she is a huge creator with a huge platform. That being said, here's two things. When I was in high school, my white boyfriend dumped me because when he started dating me, his friends started calling him a he was too embarrassed to be seen with me after that. The other thing is that your use of the hard er in that screenshot tells me that that is by no means the first time you've used that type of language. If you have a racist ass past, it is your responsibility to do the work of not just addressing but undoing all of the harm that you've caused. Only first said that the screenshots were fake and had been edited. As more context surfaced, that defense just fell apart. On February 13, 2021, they posted an apology video. They came across as emotional and serious in tone. And the response was largely negative. Many people said that the apology felt scripted, which it was scripted because soon after Alexandra, known as Xander the Empath, confirmed that they had written the apology for them. That detail just intensified the backlash. There were also claims that the management team advised them to hold off on addressing the situation to see how much traction it gained. Whether that was strategic or not, it just created this impression that brand deals were being considered before accountability could be given or could be taken. Accountability could be taken. After that, the conversation around only JSO shifted. The focus was no longer just on content or online drama. It centered on racism and how they handled being exposed. In their apology, OnJo said that they would use their platform to uplift black creators. That promise sounded clear. One of the people who responded was a black Tik Tocker named Auntie Karen. They connected and started discussing the collaborations. Emails were exchanged, plans were mentioned, and then all of a sudden communication stopped. Weeks had passed. I think even months had passed and Aunt Karen followed up multiple times. She later posted videos showing dated emails and voicemails to prove that she had tried to reach out to Bella. Bella is also only JS. But anyways, there was no reply. And when Aunt Karen finally went public about being ignored, only jails did not respond in a calm way, they posted a frustrated rant that quickly spread across all forms of social media. In it, they said today's episode of what are people mad at me for now? Not checking my emails in a timely manner. Yo, okay, maybe I'm exaggerating, but anyways, they told people to leave them alone and said that they have a diagnosed neurological disorder that causes time blindness and forgetfulness, okay? Because they were actually shouting when they were talking about this. They said they forget to eat for days. They blamed ADHD. They blamed being overwhelmed. They suggested that Aunt Karen should have just emailed again instead of going public, even though Aunt Karen had already shown proof that she emailed repeatedly. Today's episode of what are people mad at me for now? Not checking my emails IN A TIMELY MANNER. I WAS JOKING. Forgot to respond to an email from this creator that wanted to collab with me and you know instead of just like hitting me up again, they made SEVEN [ __ ] VIDEOS ABOUT IT. CAN YOU PLEASE LEAVE ME THE [ __ ] ALONE? I HAVE A DIAGNOSED NEUROLOGICAL DISORDER that makes me forget things AND PROCRASTINATE DUE TO TIME BLINDNESS. I forget to eat for days. I procrastinate sleep for more days. I BARELY TEXT MY FAMILY back and I just had TO MOVE APARTMENTS BECAUSE MY ADDRESS GOT LEAKED. AND YOU'RE GOING TO THROW A fit because I DIDN'T MAKE YOU MY PRIORITY. [ __ ] OFF. NOW, IF YOU EXCUSE ME, I'M GOING TO GO get drunk as [ __ ] in Las Vegas to celebrate my 22nd birthday. and y'all can keep crying for my attention. >> Then another creator, Sean SVV, shared his own experience. He said that he had spent over two months organizing Zoom meetings, gathering academic resources, and planning ways to collaborate with onJS to highlight black voices. He said that he too he was also ghosted. At that point, it stopped looking like a misunderstanding because multiple black creators were saying the same thing. Promises were made, time and efforts were invested and communication disappeared. Only JS came up to say that like they were being dogs and stalks and they were moving houses. So that was their excuse. But the commitment to uplift black creators which had been framed as part of their accountability began to look like damage control rather than something genuine. And I wish that they had communicated this to Aunt Karen and two people that they had promised to collaborate with. So when only Jos kept bringing ADHD in response to the backlash, the conversation shifted again. Y in case you do not know, I have ADHD. I actually have high functioning ADHD and I know ADHD is like very serious like I have time blindness. I have all of it. You can ask my friends like but I live my life with intention. I live my life with intention. I try as hard as not to use ADHD as a reason why I do not do things or I don't do things. Yes, it happens almost all the time. But I also hold myself accountable because again if you kill someone you be like, "Oh, because I was impulsive because I have ADHD." You're going to go to prison. You're going to go to prison. I see people misuse the fact that they have ADHD and this makes people not take people with ADHD like very very serious. I literally see a psychiatrist. I do have high functioning ADHD diagnosed officially. I've been diagnosed since is it 2021 or 2022? I can't even remember. I think I didn't even know I had ADHD. It was my friends that were telling me go and assess yourself for ADHD because we think you have and we think it's very serious. So when only Jos kept bringing ADHD in response to the backlash, the conversations just shifted again because they framed their forgetfulness, their missed emails, their failure to follow through as symptoms of a diagnosed neurological disorder, which trust me, like let me show you people my email. It I'm not I'm not disputing what they are saying, but let me show you people my email. This is my email. 300 I don't know if you guys can see over 300, 63 messages that I have not opened. I If you see the notifications I have in my phone, you will literally go berserk. Like I have over I think 500 messages that I've not opened that I left there and I just cannot be asked if that makes sense. I get what only JS is saying but when they use their ADHD as an excuse cuz I don't have ADHD I'm also I've spoken about this. I don't really like speaking about like what's going on upstairs with me but I've spoken about I have a video on that. not basically speaking about myself, but like I'll explore the pipeline between neurody divergent people and gayness or whatever. So, I'll leave in the description box. Hopefully, I remember to do that cuz I always forget to do that and you guys can watch it. It's a very educational video and I really enjoyed researching that. But, but when only came out and was speaking about this, a lot of neurody divergent creators were not having it because people with ADHD, they spoke up quickly and they spoke up like they were very loud about it. One creator said, "My ADHD makes me lose my car keys, not my empathy." Another said that ADHD can explain slow replies, but it does not excuse racism. It does not excuse slows or breaking promises. And that distinction became the center of the debate. >> When are you going to stop weaponizing your neurode diverency when someone calls you out for doing something wrong? >> So, I just found out about the only JS situation, which only completely reiterates my point about how a lot of white neurode divergent people will weaponize their neurode diverency in order to avoid responsibility for doing something racist. After her whole nword fiasco, she claimed that she wanted to use her platform to uplift black voices and that she wanted to collaborate with black creators in order to do that, which clearly was [ __ ] because she had exchanged messages and emails several times with a black creator talking about a collaboration that never happened. And that because of her chaotic schedule and her ADHD, she had forgotten to get back to her and actually do the collaboration. Which, by the way, between the time that they were communicating, she had posted several videos on her Tik Tok and had been streaming on Twitch and then shifted the blame on the black creator for putting her on blast instead of just reaching out to her again when clearly she just didn't want to do the collaboration anyway and wanted to blame her ADHD for it. >> Explaining behavior is not the same as taking responsibility for it. Mental health professionals on TikTok, they also joined in and there were several therapists that broke down the difference between a reason and an apology. One licensed therapist said, "Sing that I forgot is a reason, not an apology." The point was not that ADHD is not real. The point was that it cannot be used as a shield against accountability. Sometimes it can be, but it depends on the scenario. Sometimes it can be like I have timeliners. I remember when I was working in the NHS, they had to move my start time to 10:00 a.m. Except like maybe I had meetings then they'll be like, "Okay, you have to come in at 9:00." So like on days where I did not have meetings in the morning, I had to they I was officially asked to work at 10:00 a.m. Like so instead of working 9 to5, I would work 10 5 was 10 to 5 or 10 to 6. But they made the adjustment for me. But there are some times where like I forget a lot like some I haven't forgotten my laptop password and time I forgot my password like forgot it so much I was trying trying. So yeah, it can be used but not in a way that is malicious. Hopefully that makes sense. But anyways, due to this, there was this hashtag that was trending. The hashtag was called stop using ADHD and it started trending under clips of the apology and it gained hundreds of thousands of views. For many people in the ADHD community, this felt very personal. They were frustrated that their diagnosis was being associated with racism, unreliability, and broken commitments on such a very public scale. And instead of helping reduce stigma, the situation just reinforced stereotypes that neurody divergent people are careless or incapable of following through. What might have been intended as context just ended up deepening the backlash. In May 2021, Only Jails posted a video in their illegal life advice series that crossed another line because in the clip they said that if a service dog approaches you alone, it probably means that the owner is in trouble and cannot move. Then they added, "You should follow him because you would get a free wallet." On Jos was framing this as a joke and a lot of people did not see it that way as they should not see it that way because >> if a service dog ever approaches you, but they're alone, that means that their owner's in trouble and they probably can't move. So, you should follow him cuz you'll get a free walk. >> Literally, someone may have taken this like literal. And disability advocates, they responded immediately. >> If a service dog ever approaches you, but they're alone, that means that their owner's in trouble and they probably can't move. So, you should follow him cuz you'll get a free wallet. Let's talk about what you should actually do during this situation. If the dog approaches you, look at the vest. If the dog is trained to get help, usually there will be a patch on the vest that says a Q, like find mom or find dad or something like that. You will say the verbal cue, and then you will follow the dog. Once you get to the person, you will check the dog's vest. Again, sometimes there will be pouches that have medical information. Do not call 911 unless there is blood or an actual emergency. Sometimes people will be passed out and that's perfectly normal for their condition and they do not need an ambulance. But check the dog and see if there are any pockets for any medical information. If the person has a backpack, you may be able to see something on the backpack as well. You can always check for medical bracelets that say the condition. Get help if needed or just stay with the person. If a service dog ever approaches you, but they're alone, that means that their owner is in trouble and they probably can't move. So, you should follow him cuz you'll get a free wallet. >> Are you [ __ ] kidding me? Are you so dense that you don't realize that you have over 10 million followers, and out of that 10 million, there are most likely shitty people who will take this joke that you're making and make it into a reason why they thought it was okay to actually do that to someone. This won't just affect physically disabled people either. The fact that it will affect any disabled people is [ __ ] ridiculous. This will also affect mentally disabled people who use service dogs. I would use a service dog if I wasn't broke as [ __ ] Putting your hands on someone for whatever reason while they're in a physical or mental crisis and physically cannot do anything about it is ridiculous. Encouraging it is disgusting. And the fact that you are not apologizing or admitting you're wrong is gross. >> If a service dog ever approaches you, but they're alone, that means that their owner's in trouble and they probably can't move. So, you should follow him cuz you'll get a free. >> I don't think you guys truly understand how disgusting and sickening saying that is. I really don't see where the funny is. And it's also extremely dangerous to make a joke about robbing a disabled person when they are in the middle of a medical emergency. Like, they can't move. They can't help themselves. their life is potentially in danger and instead of helping them, your first thought is to make a joke about robbing them. That's not funny. You are literally sick in the head if you think that that's funny. Also, the fact that you gave to make this unfunny joke that if a service dog approaches you without an owner, it's probably because their owner is in need of help is actually very useful advice that could save a lot of lives. So, the fact that you gave actually life-saving information and instead of following up with, "Oh, you should help them" or call for help, you decided to make a joke about robbing them. Like, why would you do that? Why did you think that that was funny or okay, it's not? It's literally disgusting. Another creator named FA who uses a service dog said something that stuck with me. So basically she explained that it is a constant fear in the disability community that if they become incapacitated in public someone might take advantage of them instead of helping. She said it has happened to her before that this is the reality behind the joke. >> I've said it multiple times now but you guys clearly still don't understand how dangerous what Jay has said really was. And I need you to I am literally begging you as a disabled person with a service dog whom the situation could happen to and has happened to to listen to me and to listen to us as a community right now. J said if a service dog comes to you unattended, it means their owner is likely incapacitated. That is probably true. They did not say how you can help them. They did not say to follow them to get help. They said how you can take advantage of them. They said to take their wallet. That largely implies other ways in which you can take advantage of them. Regardless of whether or not they said it's a joke, which they said was for legal reasons, by the way, doesn't make it okay. Disabled people are not the butt of your joke. Especially when you aren't disabled, and especially when this is something that affects us dayto-day. Every single day, I fear that when I pass out, someone is going to take advantage of me. If this is funny to you, this you're a bad person. And instead of responding with a straightforward apology, only JS told people to read the caption and called one commenter a dummy, they blocked multiple people who challenged them, including a therapist who tried to explain why the video was harmful. At that point, the pattern people had been noticing became harder to ignore. When people called out, the reaction was often defensive or dismissive rather than reflective. The backlash was not just about one bad joke. It was about how they handled being told that it was harmful. In September 2024, another serious allegation surfaced that only Ja's ex-girlfriend Britney Lee Dejarro filed a restraining order. In the filing, Britney alleged that there was verbal abuse. There was unannounced late night visit, including one at 2:45 in the morning, and claimed that only jails had used their large platform to direct harassment towards her. So basically she alleged that they had access to a firearm and described what she said was a history of rage towards past partners. These were not vague claims. They were specific and were formal enough to be taken to court. Only Jos denied the allegations. In a statement to TMZ, they said that they have no history of harassment or abusive behavior which TMZ interviews anybody and everybody cuz I was so surprised when they interviewed Brol was it gllorilla? Is it Borilla or Glorilla's sister? That's a story for another day. But anyways, the case obviously, not obviously, but the case did not move forward because Britney did not appear in court and the restraining order request was dismissed. And because of that, there was no full hearing. There was no ruling on the claims and no definitive public conclusion about what had happened. So what remained was a set of allegations and a denial and a situation that ended without proper resolution which left people to sit with this uncertainty rather than clear answers. So that brings us to part three. In part three we're going to speak about the downfall of only JS because I know I sprinkled it around all of this but let's just talk about it. So by mid 2095 the decline around only JSOs was very obvious and you do not need a commentary channel to tell you that the numbers spoke for themselves. I can remember going on their page last year especially at Tik Tok and I' seen that their views had gone down so much. So what led to this was a change.org petition asking Tik Tok to remove them and this signatures were up to 448,000 and their follower count which once sat at close to 17 million had dropped to around 17.8. They still have 17 million followers anyways. But the trend was not one random fluctuation. It was consistent weekly loss. For someone who built their brand on constant growth, like watching the numbers just slide backwards was significant. YouTube looked even worse because on a channel with 4.8 million subscribers, 3 weeks ago, they posted a video and they had 2.8K views. And also there was this random pillow fight video and it pulled around I think 5,000 views. And then there's a porn video and that failed to crack 10,000 views. And this video also had like far more dislikes than they did have likes. The gap between subscriber counts and actual engagement was so massive. And brand deals they dried up. Netflix cut ties. Tinder removed their collaborations. And Caseify stopped kissifying. Oh my god. Okay. That was that was dry. I know >> broke people should never laugh. Now hold on. >> Anyways, there had not been image mainstream sponsorship since May 2023. And when brands quietly stopped renewing their contracts, that usually tells you everything. Tik Tok also reportedly warned that their accounts could face permanent suspension which added another layer of instability. As those opportunities disappeared, the pivot became much more noticeable. They shifted into political commentary. They were filming theirelves at protest and posting clips from unrest in Los Angeles. And a lot of people were so skeptical. The comments accused them of trying to rebuild their image by attaching themselves to serious issues and the engagement did not rebound. Then they launched an account on passes. So, passes is a subscription platform similar to OAF and they charge about $80 for explicit content. for me that was watching cuz I can remember when they announced this. It looks like a move towards direct monetization after mainstream brand partnership had fallen through and the response was very muted because um comments from what I could get I think around that time I seen someone do a video saying that critical comments were deleted quickly and that also their subreddit became much more tightly controlled. In January 2025, when rumors of a Tik Tok ban started circulating, Bella posted a video that felt different in tone, they admitted that they had not always used their platform wisely. They said that they think about their past choices every day and that they could have handled things differently. There's going to be two types of people watching this video right now. You're either going to see my face and be like, and scroll and that's fine. Goodbye. I'm sorry. Okay, I get it. or you're going to see my face and be like, "Psychology girl, life hacks, like what? You look different since the last time I saw you two or three years ago. That's crazy." I know that I haven't always used this platform that you guys have given me the wisest. I've made a lot of interesting choices. I could have done a lot of things differently and I think about it every single day and I like to think that I've learned and grown from it. I don't know if this app is going to go dark or not. I just felt the need to say something and like a goodbye. I guess when I when I when I downloaded this app in 2019, right, back when it was embarrassing to have, I literally I legit like hide this app in my phone and I wouldn't open it in front of anybody cuz I didn't want people to know that I was on here. It was just like theater kids and gamers and like and then to have this now like like I in the same month I started posting I had gotten fired from my job because I was posting and I also gained a million followers. Like I was still in college. That's my degree on the wall for math. I don't use that. Like this this has completely changed the trajectory of my life and I know that it's changed so many other people's too. And the fact that it's being taken away right now from the government is so stupid. And the fact that it might be saved is also so stupid. The whole circumstance around this is so idiotic and I it's stressing me out and I'm trying to be okay. I'm I'm going to be pushing on YouTube, you know, and Twitch and all the other stuff. Uh so follow me there if you want to. If not, it's okay. I understand. I am really going to miss this place, though. And I hope that we're able to take the conversations that we've been having and put them somewhere else. I'm hope I'm hoping that we can keep learning. I know I try to be like the educator on this app or whatever, but I' i've learned a lot from you guys and I don't want that to end. It's going to be fine. It's going to be fine. Whether you love me, hate me, don't have any feelings, I appreciate you. I'm so grateful for everything this app has given me. And yeah, I I don't know how to end this, so I'm just gonna I'm just gonna say goodbye. Okay, goodbye. >> For a moment, like people wondered if this was the beginning of a real change. And the ban, of course, we all know it never happened and the account stayed up and the content patterns did not shift. But before I go on, I'll just like to pause a bit because I was while I was doing my research like some days ago just like trying to get more video and continue from where I stopped in my last script. There's this person speaking about how Oni Jo was cancelled and was like can't you guys literally forgive this person like how long are we going to keep on hating on Jo something along those lines and someone was like when the Asian person did it nobody said anything so this person that they're referring to I didn't even know this was what's his name Ray William Johnson and he has used the N word before >> y'all remember that girl that y'all bullied off the internet only JS y'all found out she said the N word like 10 years ago and y'all did not drop that since like to this day she is still getting bullied in her comment sections. Like I've never seen someone get cancelled so thoroughly and entirely. To this day she is still trying to make up for that. I don't At what point do we forgive her? Like I'm not saying you have to love her or anything. I'm not saying you have to watch her or follow her. But at what point do we finally say, "Okay, we're not mad anymore. >> I'm Ray William Johnson and I approve this message." >> Damn, [ __ ] And yeah, so anyways, people there are some people that feel sorry for on JS. I am kind of torn in between but cuz like calling someone the N word. They came out to say that yeah they knew it was a bad thing but at that time that's how they felt and it does not mean that they are racist. Even in the video they released they said I'm not racist. Yes, I used these words that it was 11 years ago blah blah blah blah but they are not racist. >> I cannot believe in the year of 2025 I still have to go over this but it's fine. I'm here to educate, try my best. The book, How to be Anti-Racist, that I read and got like publicly flamed for. How dare you read this book? You think you need a book to teach you to not be racist? The book is not 300 pages of just endlessly, hey, hey, racism, don't be racist. That's bad. It's how to be anti-racist. For those of you who don't know, there's not just racist, not racist. Nothing in this universe exists in a binary. There's also anti-racism. It's people who actively call out racist things and racist people and racist systems. And if you're like, "Oh, but I'm not racist and I also call out those things." Congratulations. You're an anti-racist. This is written by Ibram X. Kendi and he just talks about more of the history that isn't taught in schools. I know you might think that you know [ __ ] everything, BUT YOU DON'T because they don't teach you everything. I have read, you watch the video, I've read so many books. I haven't read all of these. I'm getting to it. But like, you don't know everything. There's always more to learn. And I was taught the wrong things. I was taught the wrong things. And when you're taught the wrong things and you start learning the right things, there's like a cognitive dissonance happening. And I learned something that when I was canceled is I'm having major cognitive dissonance. And so what I did about it of like, hey, I've done bad things. I don't want to keep doing bad things. I don't want to keep saying slurs, guys. I did. I wasn't, but like I didn't want to like I wanted to understand why, but also how to go about being better than just saying I don't say slurs anymore, so it's fine. I wanted to do more than that. So I educated myself. I'm trying my [ __ ] best. And what I can say to people who are also trying their [ __ ] best is people don't want you to grow because it makes them feel small. >> But there was even a video when someone commented that how are they still alive that they should be dead and only JS responded to that and was like please I've taken a lot of things but don't do not do this. >> I can handle a lot. You don't get to be only JS still posting online without being able to handle a lot. But I'm going to ask knowing full well it's probably just going to invite more in. But I'm going to try and ask for these type of comments to stop. Please don't go attack this specific person cuz honestly this one's not even that bad. But like you can make fun of me. You could say I've fallen off. You could say all the horrible things that I've said back at me. You could keep making up rumors about me. You could keep doxing my [ __ ] address. I guess you could do any. You could block me. I don't care. Please stop. I can't keep opening comment sections and just reading how people are surprised I haven't committed yet. And I keep every 15 20 times a day I see a DM of somebody literally telling me to kill myself. And maybe I deserve it. I'm still posting, right? I'm asking for it, I guess. I'm going to share something that I haven't talked about online because it's [ __ ] embarrassing and I don't like talking about it. When I got cancelled, I was told not to post anything. Don't say anything. Let it blow over. And I didn't do that. I decided to make an apology video even though everybody told me not to. I felt bad. So, I apologized knowing full well that I didn't deserve anybody's forgiveness and that I definitely deserve to have like to have that backlash and and all the privileges that I was getting to be taken away. I understood that. But the reaction that I got was like this but just like tenfold so many more people this. And I decided that I had to drive my gun to my dad because I didn't trust it in my house anymore. And the reason I didn't trust it in my house anymore is because I was just obsessively obsessively reading what everybody was saying. everybody was saying and I would couldn't stop responding either and I wasn't sleeping and I couldn't I just kept responding and I found myself in my shower with a head thinking this this will be the easiest way for it to get cleaned up. And it's scary that I thought that. And it's scary that it's not even the last time that I've thought that. And like I said, I maybe I it's not on you. My mental health is not on you guys. That is a me thing that I'm working on. Just it did didn't help, right? And so there's days where I really can look at comments like these and not let it get to me as much. But then there's other days where I I think I'd be better off. And I look at I look at other creators, the creators who have committed because of how being online affected their head. I I look at how the world reacts to creators that do. And that also scares me that like Okay. Um, point made. I think I will be okay. Even if it doesn't stop, I will be okay. I'm just asking for it to stop because I I have younger siblings. I have dogs. I have people that say they care about me and are constantly checking in on me. And I feel so bad about that cuz it's like isn't it embarrassing for you to be associated with me? Like why? I don't I don't get it honestly. But I appreciate these people and I don't think I've killed myself yet because of spite though. I think that's it. I don't I don't want I don't want the memes, man. I can't do it. which I not really want to talk about that side of them, but only Jos is someone that suffers from self harm. Self harm hopefully like sh. Whenever I see my younger siblings, I make it a point to give each one of them a hug, hello, and goodbye because when I was put in foster care, they didn't get a goodbye from me and then we just didn't see each other for 3 years. I have a hard time believing people when they compliment me or say that they like me because I've had multiple exes after months or years of dating straight up tell me that they were never attracted to me in the first place. I grew up hearing stories from my mom about her being homeless. And even though I don't have a relationship with her anymore, anytime I see somebody who is homeless, I always give them whatever cash I have in my wallet. I think the only reason I'm gay is because when I was four, there was an older neighbor girl who kissed me and it blew my mind because I didn't even think that was an option. And ever since I've had crushes on girls. Whenever I get to a really low point, the only thing that keeps me here is curiosity. I don't necessarily want to be alive, but I stick around just to see what happens. I try really hard to be authentically me as I can be around anybody that I meet because I was forced to hide who I was for years and I never want to experience that feeling again. And in the video they posted yesterday which I'm going to come to I'm not going to speak about that part but like when they were processing their relationship with or their breakup with Marty like there was a part where like they hit their head and there was even a time where they said they had to give their dad their gun because they were scared as to what they would do. So going on people's account to say why you still alive or I wish you were. That's very distasteful. You people are. Some people are very crazy. I had someone call me a black [ __ ] Um very racist towards me in my last video when I posted about Haley. Person called me a black [ __ ] Whatever. And this person has been trolling me for several months. And you know what? You're going to keep remaining in my spam. And I hardly check my spam. I let me check my spam. And I checked my spam and I'm saying this person just berating me and saying [ __ ] about me being racist. And I'm like, if you have so much hate in your heart, why are you still watching my content? Like why are you still watching my video? I don't get it. Like why are you still watching my [ __ ] content? Why you watching my content? I don't get it. Like there is a do not recommend button on YouTube. Why you still watching my content? Are you that obsessed with me? So you would watch my content. contents I don't like to watch, I put do not recommend channel and YouTube doesn't recommend them to me. Sometimes they do and I'm like and then I press it again. So going around calling people names is very distasteful. Okay, but anyways, I just digress. But let's go back to the topic at hand. But anyways, only Jos opened up about how deeply the backlash affected them. And in one video, they said that they had lost nearly everything and admitted that they had thoughts of ending their life. and they described how frightening it was to feel that way and said that it was not just a one-time thought which a lot of things was happening around that time and also like I explained earlier the break up with Marty and everything like your life and obviously they were very vulnerable which which stood out but that point though most of the goodwill was literally gone and this was like 2025 January before they almost when Tik Tok was meant to be banned or whatever and the audience that most defended them had left or they were disengaged. So the follower counts, the views, the missing brand deals, all of it just painted the same picture. The rise had been explosive and the fall was slower but just as visible. So now let's go to part four. The Marty Westbrook relationships and Matty Westbrook started interacting publicly around 2020 to 2021 when both of them were rising quickly on Tik Tok. Marty around this time was already a major creator. But Marty was openly non-binary with a very loyal fan base. So Bella posting a video calling Marty their crush and closest friend just set the tone early. It was very flirtatious, but it was also very intentional. So many fans picked up on it immediately. Once they confirmed that they were together, the relationship became content. They leaned into it so fully. They had couples challenges, soft launch pose, um inside joke, affectionate vlog, live streams that they answered questions about how they met. And this dynamic just played very well online. They looked so comfortable together. Their collaborative videos pulled strong numbers and their relationship became part of both of their brands. That was how I myself actually met on JSO on Instagram cuz I met them first on Instagram cuz Instagram kept suggesting that post to me. Their relationship was refreshing especially because it was not the ordinary firm and mask relationship. It was just two masks presenting non-binary people genuinely falling in love and you could just see the love just radiate like you could see that Matty was in love with only Jos and on Jos was so in love with Matty and even while I was like going through like the archives and just watching them and everything and I was like how do you love someone so expressively that after 2 years you just totally end the relationship and move on and things just go on? Hopefully I'm making sense. But anyways, they did for roughly two years from late 2020 to was it early 2021 until November 2022. During that time, they appeared in events together. They filmed frequently in each other's homes and they posted consistent relationship content. In December 2021, OnJi uploaded a couple challenge video with Marty that performed so well and they presented as stable, as affectionate, as someone that was serious. There was even a video that I saw where Marty actually called on JSO their wife. So basically from the outside looking in there were no obvious crack. I was genuinely rooting for them honestly. Then November 2022 happened and they broke up. This breakup was abrupt and it was initially vague and Marty ended the relationship without giving public details. About a month later Marty disclosed that the breakup was due to infidelity. And of course that shifted the narrative immediately. People initially speculated that it was Bella that cheated on Matty which again I can see why people did it because again Bella is seen as the controversial one and Marty is literally people's lesbian princess like Matt is literally people's lesbian you know god and people really do love Marty but boy oh boy according to Bella it was the other way around confirmed the breakup on March 1st 2023 through Snapchat then followed up with emotional post on Tik Tok and Instagram. In those videos, they described how they found out about cheating. I remember watching this on Instagram because according to Bella, Marty spent time in a mutual friend hotel room while they were still together. Bella emphasized that several people in their shared social circle knew about the cheating and did not tell them. They described the pain as layered, not just betrayal from a part, but silence from friends. And Bella did not publicly identify the person involved because I think there were like legal reasons behind that. But online people speculated and it centered around someone named Olivia Pontton. But there has been no confirmation. There was no confirmation around that time that was provided. But in the video that Bella uploaded yesterday on their YouTube channel explaining everything. Um they mentioned Olivia Pontton. >> Maddie, you made me feel unsafe. You made me question everything that there is about like relationships and people. You you told me that you were going to kill yourself. The night you told me you cheated on me with Olivia Pontton. Do you remember that? You were on ketamine. Dude, you got onto a bus. You said, "I'm gonna kill myself now." And then just ran and got on a random LA Metro bus. I'm sorry, YouTube, that I didn't record any of this for for documentation to keep proof. Why would I lie about this? I had to get on that bus to make sure that you got home safe because you kept threatening to kill yourself. You kept threatening to kill yourself. And then now you're going to switch it up and say, "Look, they've threatened to kill themselves, too." >> Okay, they kind of confirmed it, but all this is alleged because it's not being confirmed in the court of law. Okay, Marty remained largely quiet. They posted and deleted a few videos that appeared to indirectly reference the situation, but they did not go into specifics. >> Okay, so I was just sitting here trying to crochet this bunny that's turned out to look like a piece of binder paper. when I really had no idea why I was still getting so many comments about my past relationship. And it's because I had no idea y'all were that infested. And I really want to come on here and share my side of the story, but that will only lead to more hurt and that will only lead to more questions. And that will not lead to healing on either party's side because we both made mistakes. It was a very toxic and abusive relationship on both ends. And the things that I put Bella through, I owned up to privately many, many, many months ago. And so seeing all of this resurface is just kind of interesting. And it just kind of puts me in this weird mental state where I'm not sure how to go about it. But I am bettering myself. I'm very sober. I'm very single. And I'm finding my peace. And I hope that Bella finds peace and I hope that the world continues to spin. There were claims circulating online that Matty and the person allegedly involved threatened defamation actions against Bella, which may explain why Bella avoided naming names. Today is the 4month anniversary of this shitty [ __ ] roller coaster I've been on of being broken up with and not being told why. Um, in that time, I eventually did learn the truth. Uh, I got cheated on. Way too many friends knew about this and chose to leave me in the dark over it. And processing that along with the end of my relationship has been weird. So, I made a video on my spam yesterday. This is my [ __ ] life, but it kind of blew up a little bit. But because I'm me and my ex is my ex, uh the response so far has been, I don't believe you, which honestly valid. I didn't believe it myself. It took a very long time for me to understand that this actually happened. But in the time of getting broken up with and learning why I got broken up with, they posted a lot of very cryptic videos where they admit it before they ever admitted it, you know, and people started pointing that out after I posted my video and they deleted them, but I saved them along with a few other videos from our relationship, which looking back now are ironic as [ __ ] Before I go and share this though, I just want to say do not go and send hate to anybody. No internet dog piling. It's not fair. This whole situation isn't fair, but like I've been through that and it's a nightmare that I would not wish on anybody, especially somebody that in a very [ __ ] up way I still love and care about. Just don't do it. Okay? I just can't keep reading the rumors that I'm the one that [ __ ] this up. Cuz And everybody that is already saying that I deserve to be cheated on because of the controversy that surrounds me, just know that you sound like somebody that would also go and shatter somebody else's sense of safety, trust, and love. Okay? We should all strive to do better. This one match is mounting to a song that says, "It's not your fault, it's mine." I know your heart was on the line, but it was not your fault. It's mine. I don't know who sang it. Obviously, I cannot play it because copyright. >> Hey, no, I'm not me. I'm someone else. >> But what would you do if I was like some stranger at a bar and was like, "Hey, that was good." He just Mario sprint across the whole bar. What do we know? I have a boyfriend. What would you do if I wasn't me? >> If you weren't you? Well, >> no, because I have a girlfriend at home. >> That one hurt just a little extra to rewatch because they did indeed have a girlfriend at home and still chose to go to another girl's hotel room and cheat on me. I think I'm going to be single on purpose forever because I never want to do this [ __ ] again. >> Without public documentation, those claims stayed online. After the breakup, there was this brief period where it looked like reconciliation might happen. They refollowed each other and interacted on social media and then the interaction stopped. Bella moved on publicly and began dating Britney and they attended events together including a streaming awards and they appeared publicly as a couple. That relationship later ended with Britney filing for a restraining order in September 2024 which was dismissed after she now appeared in court. Like I said earlier, Marty also moved forward and in 2023 they went public with Amara Kadova, also known as Amara Jane, who is a much younger creator. By 2024, they were living together and regularly posting couples content. The relationship seemed steady online. Then questions began circulating about Amara's age and when she and Marty had first met. People started examining timelines and there were screenshots that resurfaced and the discussion shifted from relationship drama to something much more serious which I'm going to speak about in part five. So, welcome to part five. And here we're going to speak about the receipt allegations against Marty and Marty's response. By the end of 2025, people started noticing something was off with Marty and Amara. They stopped appearing in each other's videos after Thanksgiving. At first, it was subtle and Marty posted that the split was normal and that they were still friends. I remember when they posted this and I was like, "Oh, really?" Like earlier, that was 2025, like around January, after Donald Trump won the election, I remember Marty had said that they had quickly gotten married to Amara. I saw that on Instagram and it was very unclear whether that was serious or whether it was a joke. But I genuinely believe that they were legally married because of how it was presented. I'm going to go and check for that post because I know I'm not dreaming. I remember people rushing to go and get married because they were scared of what was going to happen to gay and queer couples. And I can remember Marty and Amara saying that they got married. But anyways, after the breakup, Only Jos eventually started speaking about Marty again. In February 2026, they posted a string of Tik Tok saying that they had been sitting on information for years. So, I'm speaking about only JSOs now. So, on Jos claimed that they had received, they had screenshots and they had a long list of timelines and the tone was very much I have stayed quiet long enough and they started dropping pieces of stories on Tik Tok bit by bit. And in between this post, Marty responded in the comments and also uploaded a video addressing some of what was said. And so all this was unfolding in real time back and forth. It was very messy, very public. And honestly, I was waiting once Bella was like, "Okay, I'm going to post a full YouTube video." I was waiting for the YouTube video because they said that it was going to be much more comprehensive. But what they said in the YouTube video was kind of what they said on Tik Tok. They put more context in it because Tik Tok was everywhere. I'm not even going to lie. But I downloaded everything. You know, last time in my cut and legs, I put everything in a folder. This time I made sure to download everything. It's only one person that was supporting Marty and the person was like, oh, because I don't trust only JS, so I'm going to support Marty and Marty was their own lesbian, whatever that looking up to or whatever. Like I'm like, girl, I thought we canled only JS. Something about that hole just don't sit right with me for some reason. And that's okay, but I want to know. I need physical proof of what she's saying about Maddie because Maddie is my favorite little lesbian, right? And I need to know. >> But anyways, eventually they did upload the video yesterday on YouTube and I watched everything. Once I uploaded it, immediately I downloaded in case they delete it. I downloaded on my laptop, but I watched everything. So from this breakdown, I'm going to use that YouTube video as the main source since it lays out the full version of events. Then I'll go through Marty's response which came before the YouTube upload but still directly addresses the same allegations that Bella made. Hopefully that makes sense because this timeline is a bit chaotic even when only Jos was explaining things. I was a bit confused. It was a bit chaotic but I would try and just keep it clear and concise in a way that makes sense. But if you want to watch a full video I'm going to link it down in the description box. So on the 18th of February I'm filming this on the 19th of February. On the 18th of February 26, Only Jails uploaded a 44 minute video to YouTube entitled It X Called Me a Liar. Let's address it. It premiered around 5:00 p.m. or 6 p.m. when it came out. I watched it an hour after it came out because I saw a post on their Instagram 28 minutes later and they said they posted this on their YouTube. So when I went on their YouTube, I watched it around the first hour of which they had premiered it. Hopefully that makes sense. But while I was still gathering my notes from when I finished watching and while I was still gathering my notes when I went back to the YouTube video to when I was concentrating on the YouTube video that was like 8 hours after and 8 hours after they had already amassed over 45,000 views which is very noticeable considering how much their engagement had dropped over the past year because the video before that was like I think it had 2.5k views. So in description they framed the video as something that they had been sitting on for a very long time. They wrote that it was an ancient history and included all the lost receipts that they could find. They described it as context. They described it as proof and closure and it was not something that they did as revenge or as a comeback. They added that accountability is not a threat and they also said that they would answer questions for about a week and then they plan to step back and return to their life hopefully with fewer people lying. They are writing not mine. The video was tagged with drama, cheating, and breakup. And this upload did not come out of anywhere. In the days leading up to it, between February 12th and February 16th, they have been posting Tik Tok sharing screenshots and timelines about Marty Westbrook. Those short clips, they helped to build this momentum and people were pulled in and they were pulled back into the story. There's even this person that I follow, I think her name is Droid the Lesbian. She posted an Instagram video speaking about why lesbians message like young people. And I commented, I was like, "Only Jos and Matty." Then I put the I emoji and people were like liking the comments. Just because you're a lesbian does not mean you get to talk to underage girls. You're not different. You're not misunderstood. You're just creepy. Before anyone says, "Why? Why do we keep having this conversation?" Because it keeps happening. That's why. And if you know, you know. But every couple of months there's a story about a grown adult in our community being weird with a teenager or having a full-blown relationship with them. The weirdest part is that some people automatically think that queerness makes them safe. Like being gay is some type of like moral clearance badge. Oh, predatory behavior is predatory behavior. It does not become quirky because it's rainbow flavored. No, I'm not talking about 18 and 20, okay? No, I'm talking about grown adults in their 20s, 30s, 40s, in teenagers DMs, 17year-olds DMs. What bothers me the most? A lot of you guys hide behind mentoring. Okay, why are you mentoring a teenager in private messages on Snapchat at midnight? It's not mentoring. It's grooming. If you ever try to bring this up or call it out, there's a whole group of people on the internet that are just like, "Oh, well, straight men, straight people, I don't care." If your attraction pool includes high schoolers and you have a mortgage, something is wrong. And I don't want to have to say this again. So to understand why that YouTube video dropped when it did, you have to look at the timeline. Since the breakup became public in March 2023, only Jos had been hinting that there was more to the story than simple cheating. At the time, when they said that Marty had been unfaithful, the response online was very cold and a lot of people did not really care. Some were openly hostile because of Bella's own history and also the fact that they had this racism scandal and the plagiarism, the ghost collaborations, the many. So literally every controversy that Bella has been in made people just treat this heartbreak as it was as if it was karma. Basically when people commented saying you get what you give. So when Bella had initially spoken about this, there was very little sympathy for Bella. And Bella also said back then that they could not say everything because obviously I think they implied that there were legal reasons that they had to stay vague and there were reports that circulated that Mati and the person allegedly involved had threatened or pursued defamation against only jails. So so basically whether formal lawsuits were filed or not the message was clear. If Bella said too much it would turn into this legal fight for almost 3 years that pressure kept details from being shared publicly. Although now only Jos or Bella or Isabella, they literally told Matthew, they were like, "Bring your lawyers. Let's go to court." Because I think now they're very confident because of the circumstantial evidence. I'm not going to say it's concrete evidence because it's not been proven in the court of law, if that makes sense. And I do not want to get sued. So all of this is alleged. I said, "Quick question. Did you have these texts? She's going skydiving." Said, "I found so many old texts. I'm so scared." Um, mind you, I was always drunk at their apartment and then she sent me some of these old videos where she is drunk at the apartment and Maddie claims that they weren't physical. Oh, but these look really so they just look so physical. They just look so physical with me. This isn't something that I would do at a as a 20-year-old to a 17-year-old. But hey, whatever. Okay. Oh god. June 2022 said, "Bro, the way everyone just ignored our virginity conversation. Why are you talking about virginity to a 17-year-old? Hey, you want to come to my place? I'm literally at dicks buying boxing gloves and wraps right now. I have my first training tonight. That's so exciting. They were buying boxing [ __ ] with me. They were with me texting Nor, but whatever. God, I think this is Maddie sending No uh their like thirst traps together, like the the fan pages that people made. Hold. Actually, they sent it. Picture yourself as Nor. Oh my god. Maddie, you're so dumb. You're so dumb for making that reply video, dude. Go ahead and get your lawyers. I would love I would love I would love I would love for a judge to see this [ __ ] please. I already got one ex down bad in court. I'm down to get another one. Come on. Come on. Let's do it. I'm a good lawyer. Then late 2025 shifted the whole landscape because Mati and Amara, they had broken up. And the last Instagram post featuring Amara was dated November 30, 2025. Once that relationship ended, the dynamic changed. There was no longer an active couple presentation online that discouraged scrutiny. People started revisiting old videos. And around the same time, when Bella began posting Tik Toks in February 2026, sharing screenshots and context, ready threats filled with new claims. According to multiple users summarizing the situation, other people came forward saying that they had their own experiences with Marty. Even these people also told Bella and they were like, "See, I had my own experience with Marty." And some of those alleged interactions involved people who were reportedly under 17 years at that time. That raised the stakes completely. From Bella's perspective, the legal risk appeared lower. The relationship shooting Marty was over and other voices were now speaking up. That combination created this opening and I think that's why they also chose to compile everything into one long YouTube video. In their framing, it was about like saying the final word or to just finally say what they had not been able to say for all these years. So basically in the YouTube video, Bella laid everything out in sections instead of just speaking in general term, but it was a bit scattered for me and my brain honestly. They frame through each allegation step by step and then they tied it back to screenshots and dates and also earlier statement. Bella began from the place that they had started in March 2023. They said that the relationship with Marty lasted roughly 2 years generally placed from sometime in 2020 until they broke up in November 2022. According to Bella, Marty entered the relationship suddenly and without explaining. Bella then said that they were left confused for about a month trying to understand what had happened before Marty eventually admitted to cheating by going to another girl's hotel room. Bella did not present this as a new story. They framed it as something that they had already said publicly years earlier. And there were already threats that revisited Bella's original breakup video. And so when Bella knew the reason for the breakup, according to the video that Bella posted yesterday, they said that Matty blamed everything and everyone for the breakup. So basically, according to Bella, Marty had cheated during a trip away from home and they blamed everything. A lot of reasons for cheating. They also blamed Bella's family and they also blamed including meeting with Joe Biden, which was so [ __ ] random. Our dating relationship was weird. I wanted to be polyamorous. They wanted to be monogamous with me and I eventually agreed to that, but they cheated on me anyway, which is crazy. >> November of 2022, I kissed somebody else. >> That's a lie. It wasn't in November. After 4 years, you're finally going to admit to just kissing some girl in the wrong month. You're finally going to admit to cheating on me. With that one, they blamed alcohol. They blamed depression. They blamed my parents' divorce. And they blamed the stress of meeting Joe Biden. I wish I was making that up. Thank you, Maddie. Thank you for finally admitting you were cheated on me. At least with this one girl. What's crazy here? What's crazy here is they actually blocked out Olivia Pontton's name. But anyways, the first section was just Bella just explaining the breakup and how much he hurt and everything and how did he not expect a big part of Bella's series focused on Nicholas Ray. So Nicholas Ray, they brought him up as more than just a random name. Bella described past encounters with Nicholas and said that there were troubling allegations about his interactions with teenage girls. And the way Bella framed suggested that the issue was not just about one relationship or one act of cheating. They were pointing to a broader social environment. The implication was that Marty's circle included people who were also accused of inappropriate behavior involving minors. I do not really know this Nicolola's guy. So, I cannot say anything further about the situation, but Bella just said that he was buying drinks allegedly for underage girls and he didn't like Bella. So, I think he banned Bella from coming to his house and Bella did not like him either, but Marty was going to his house. Excuse me. If someone bans my partner from going to their place, I'm not going to go to your place, too. But I just I was aside the whole thing. I'm like, okay. My god. You're still a grown adult, okay, with a 17-year-old. I was 22. Nor was living in the same building complex as Maddie, Nick, and Scott. Maddie and Nick were very much a part of this. Scott, not so much. He was kind of always on his own or out of the house. So, not him. Carter was actually there while they were all drinking, but he was also extremely young. He wasn't even living there yet. If I remember right, he was Nor's friend. Okay, these two adults, Nick and Maddie, would provide alcohol to these Tik Tok teenagers in the building. I stopped going to the apartment. One, because I didn't [ __ ] with Nick, and two, because Nick didn't [ __ ] with me. I wasn't allowed at his place. So, I didn't go. I wasn't I wasn't involved. And you know what? I at the time just thought that it was Nick that had this drinking problem. It was later that I realized that Maddie had it too. And it was really only this month that I learned the true extent of Norah and Mattiey's relationship. They would drink. They would make videos. They would go to each other's apartments. Maddie was texting her while in bed with me telling her that they loved her, telling them that they were in a PR relationship with me. I don't even have the time to begin to explain how funny that sentence is. But they they claim to be in a PR relationship with only JS. What? But anyways, the most serious layer of Bella's claims has always been about minors. Bella has maintained that when the breakup first happened, it was not just about adult infidelity. They alleged that Marty's cheating involved someone who was underage at that time. When Bella first said this in 2023, a lot of people dismissed it. Their own history, especially the racism scandal, had already damaged their credibility, and many treated the accusation as something that came from bitterness or deflection rather than something that needed careful attention. Now, Bella is saying that they have shared screenshots and timelines that support what they were hinting at years ago. They've also said that other people reached out with their own accounts after Bella started posting. Some of those accounts, according to Bella, involved people who were under 17 at the time of the alleged communication. There's even this girl that also reached out to Bella and also commented and was like, "Yes, that Marty was speaking to them before they became an adult." And Marty reached out to this person. Marty came out and debunked it and said that they had nothing sexual to do with this person. And Marty debunked the whole situation but and messaged the person and I think her name is No. messaged No and was like, "See, we need to talk about this because I saw your comments. You saying that this happened between me and you. We need to talk about it because I know what happened." And Noah did not reply. And Bella was like, "Yes, she's not going to reply to you because again, this is what you did." When Noah decided to comment on my videos being like, "Yes, like, I'm that girl in the screenshot. Thank you for this." Maddie went and texted them, said, "Hey, Nor, it's Maddie. I'm really confused about the comment you left on Bella's post because you and I never did anything besides make those videos together, which in hindsight, I understand how they're really misleading, but also making those videos with everybody else, we knew I would love to call you and talk about this because I do know what the truth is and I'm really hurt you would try to push the narrative the other way. Hey, Maddie, there's a reason Nord didn't respond to you is because you were an adult grooming a minor. You're weird. Literally this [ __ ] Norah said, "Mind you, I have like an hourong phone call with Maddie after everything happened." And I was like, "I really need your help with this because this is a detrimental, traumatic situation I'm being put through." And they didn't want to help at all. Like I tried to get them to talk to my detective on my case and [ __ ] and they wouldn't. So I don't know why they would love to call and figure this out. Like no, this has been tormenting me for 5 years. I'm so confused. I'm so confused. is like like like do what you want with that text. I'm just I'm so ready to get involved. Well, it's crazy. And then she said like I'm sorry with what was the I can't wait to take you on a second date when you turn 18. A second date? Wait a minute. Wait a minute. I remember Maddie saying I can't wait to take her on a date when she turns 18. A second date? You mean like what you did with Amara? Anyway, yeah. Then they mentioned the PR relationship thing, which is just like crazy. That's just that. That's such a bad PR move. Norah saying she has zero intentions of talking to Maddie. I said, I have every intention of talking about this. I sent her some more proof, which we will get to, I promise. Um, I said, quick question. Did you have these texts? She's going skydiving. Said, I found so many old texts. I'm so scared. Um, mind you, I was always drunk at their apartment and then she sent me some of these old videos where she is drunk at the apartment and Maddie claims that they if all this is true, the story just shifts completely. It stops being about cheating and becomes about whether there was a pattern of inappropriate contact with minors. That is not something that is just a me drama for the internet. This is very serious allegation. At the same time, these are allegations coming from Bella's videos and statements. There have not been any public court case or independent investigation confirming them. So the weight of the accusation depends on the evidence that Bella presents and whether it holds up under scrutiny. And let's talk about the Amara timeline because the Amara timeline just sits right in the middle of this whole debate. Amara was born on February 20, 2005. Amati was born September 2nd, 2000 and the age gap is just about four and a half years and they publicly launched their relationship in April 20124 which Amara was I think she was 19 and Marty was 23. The tension lies in the earlier years. Bera clarified that I say Bera. Bella clarified that Amara was 16 when she and Marty first became acquainted. But in the earlier videos that Bella posted on Tik Tok, they said that Amara was 15. But Bella in the YouTube video corrected their subelves and said that Amala I say amala. Oh my god I'm Nigerian. In case you don't know what amala is is a type of food that Amara was 16 and Amar is also a Nigerian name but anyway story for another day. So according to Bella there was no official romantic relationship at 16. The relationship as presented publicly began once Amara turned 18. And Bella said that them and Marty met Amara at the same time. And according to Bella, Bella said that when once they met Amara that Mati told Bella, "Oh my god, she's so beautiful." And Bella said in her mind, she didn't think, "Oh, this guy is so beautiful." She was like, "Oh my god, this girl is so young." Know how long? I just feel dumb for how long it took me to finally see all of this. Quick timeline. Me and Maddie started seeing each other in March of 2021, and we stopped talking February 2023. Our dating relationship was weird. I wanted to be polyamorous. They wanted to be monogamous with me and I eventually agreed to that. But they cheated on me anyway, which is crazy. Another messy. Okay, but I was an adult, right? I should have just stepped away, but my self-esteem was so bad, dude, that like I didn't. And that's just embarrassing. Now, okay, with Amara, Amara has said that she was 18. And you know what? I believe women. If Amara says that she was 18, then Amara was 18. I'm not going to rewrite her experience, but I think the context matters because it exists. I did originally say that we met Amara when she was 15, and I you're going to have to forgive me for that because the math is wrong. Uh she was 16 because events didn't start happening until 2021. I remember meeting her at this like it was like a Spotify podcaster event. I remember Drew Off speaking. I'm sorry I didn't take a bunch of pictures to prove this for you guys years later. You just have to trust that. I remember meeting her. I remember Maddie introducing me to her with her ex uh JT and like in a way that's like, oh, like your mutual is with this person. You're friends with this person. And we're walking away like, oh my god, she's so pretty. And in my head, I'm like, she's so young. I remember them saying that Amaro is like really pretty. And my first thought was, she's like really young and she has a boyfriend. My guess is Maddie did wait until this teenage girl turned 18 to start dating them. a 23 year old waited for a 17-year-old to turn 18 because they're not stupid. They're just creepy. Okay? And I don't know the details of their relationship. I'm not gonna act like I do, but there was definitely some social overlap happening because in November of 2022, Amara went to a concert with Maddie. I'm sitting in my room right now editing this video. Literally, as I'm like talking about stuff, going and finding the receipts because what else am I supposed to do? And I'm feeling I'm feeling so insane because the other day I find a video of them all at a concert and now it's gone. Wondering what Maddie was doing in those days of silence deleting evidence. And December is when Maddie admitted to cheating on me with that like adult named Olivia Pontton. Uh with that one they blamed alcohol. They blamed depression. They blamed my parents' divorce. and they blamed the stress of meeting Joe Biden. I wish I was making that up. But again, I'm stupid and I have a low self-esteem. So, in January of 2023, me and Maddie are still hanging out. February is when we stop talking and we haven't spoken since. Same month that Amara turns 18. From where I stand, that timeline is just a little bit uncomfortable. That's all. But anyways, if that sequence is accurate, then the public relationship itself was illegal. But the question that I keep circling back to is what was the nature of the connection before Amara turned 18? Because if Marty at 20 formed and maintained a close relationship with a 16-year-old while still in a relationship with Bella, people are literally going to examine that dynamic closely. Was it casual online interaction between creators? Was it mentorship? Was it emotional intimacy? And honestly, the answer matters a lot because if there was a romantic or sexual intent before Amara turned 18, that raises serious concerns if there was ongoing communication that later turned romantic the moment she became legally an adult. Some people would still see that as ethically questionable even if it is technically legal. Others would argue that without proof of inappropriate behavior before adulthood, it is unfair to label it as grooming. But it's kind of grooming, you know, and this is why the timeline feels so charged because the public launch at 19 is not the issue. The issue is whether the foundation of that relationship was laid when one person was still a mid teen and the other was already an adult. If Bella's allegations about minors are accurate, then the Amara timeline becomes part of a brother pattern. If they are not, then it becomes a story about a legal age gap relationship that began once both parties were adults. Right now, this whole situation just sits in that tension because there've been serious claims and the serious claims are being made and they have not been formally adjudicated and until there is independent confirmation or contradiction cuz Marty said that they have lawyers and their lawyers are taking it to court. So, the conversation just remains in the space between allegation and proof. Marty uploaded a response. They uploaded a response on their Tik Tok and in the clips that circulated, they denied the allegations directly. They said that they were not dating anyone while they were in a relationship with Bella. Their statement directly contradicted Bella's claim that that there was cheating happening behind the scenes with Amara and Marty framed the accusations as false and defamatory. They not go through each screenshot or timeline point by point. Instead, the approach was simple. They denied it. They reject the whole story. And they also push back on the idea that anything inappropriate did happen. >> So, I want to start this off by saying that I never wanted to give any attention to the blatant lies that are being told about me right now. But I really cannot stay quiet any longer about the serious accusations that are being made against me. Thank you so much to absolutely everybody who waited for my response before coming to any conclusions about these accusations. The only reason I did not speak out about this issue sooner is because Bella only JS is someone who in the past has physically showed up to the place that I live and has previously threatened my physical safety. So yes, in 2021 I was in a toxic relationship with somebody that I did not know how to communicate with. So while I was at an extremely low point in my life in November of 2022, I kissed somebody else, but it was not the person from this screenshot. It was not Amara and it was absolutely not anyone underage. I did eventually end up telling Bella what happened, when it happened, and who it was with. However, the lies that this person is currently spreading about me and my character are absolutely disgusting. They said that in this screenshot, I was 21 having a relationship with somebody who was 17. Me and the person in this screenshot have never had a physically intimate relationship before or after she turned 18. In fact, since nothing happened between us, I thought we were on good terms, considering she reached out to me in 2023 just to check in and see how I was doing. I have reached out to her to let her know that it did sting that she would instigate complete lies about me on the internet, but she never responded. Bella also claimed that in this screenshot I was 21 providing alcohol to underage people. I was not 21 in this screenshot. I was 20. This is me at 20. This is me at 21. I also have no idea why Bella is lying that I met Amara when she was 15 years old. This never happened. I also never cheated on Bella with Amara, especially not when she was 17. The proof that they have is from a screenshot of me in a red hoodie from December of 2022 and a screenshot of Amara in her own red hoodie from March of 2023, which is over a month after Bella and I went complete no contact. And when Amara was already 18, this was also not my hoodie. We both owned the same Brandy Melville hoodie. And since I feel the need to clarify, Amara and I started dating on August 6th, 2023, and we hard launched on April 12th, 2024. Amara and I are also both very confused why people would try and tell us when we started dating. Now, to address the text screenshots in 2020, I would get on Zooms and FaceTime to play Among Us. I am well aware that Bella has screenshots of text conversations that I had with people in 2020 that I met through these Zooms, but I have never had an intimate conversation with anybody that I met on these calls, especially anyone underage. And I have proof that somebody who screen recorded a conversation we had in 2020 told Bella that we stopped talking once I found out how old they were. These lies are some of the most disgusting things you can say about someone. In my entire life, I have never been physically intimate or tried to be with absolutely anybody underage. The person trying to spread lies about me right now is not a trustworthy or credible person. This is somebody who has lied in the past and will continue to lie. And I know that from witnessing very personal experiences with them. To anyone who has been in a situation with an abusive exartner, you can understand how hard it is to speak up when you feel like your physical safety is in danger. I strongly urge anyone in a similar situation to reach out and get help. You are not alone and I cannot express enough how grateful I am to the people who have stuck by me and stuck by my truth during this time. I also can't speak any further on this specific situation because my legal team has gotten involved. Thank you. >> But again, watching Matt's response, even though they responded like shallowy, they didn't go through in depth. I think the screenshot that they put on screen, they were literally chising. I don't know if chhatitan is the word. How should I put it? Okay, basically this is what I got. For example, if you have someone I'm not saying that this is the whole scenario. They were trying to cast doubt in Bella's story by posting screenshots of Bella acting crazy when the breakup happened and also like trying to subtly revisit their past. Hopefully that makes sense. Hopefully that makes sense. The only reason I did not speak out about this issue sooner is because Bella only JS is someone who in the past has physically showed up to the place that I live and has previously threat >> because we dated for 2 years. You [ __ ] weirdo. What are you talking about? Okay, so they post some texts that I sent them. Let's see. In February, so this is the very end of our relationship again. February 2023, end of our relationship completely. You can see why I am unhinged. I'm losing my goddamn mind. We are experiencing in this what is clinically called reactive abuse. I and nothing I said in here was okay. Okay, let's just get that off the table. But hey, at least the things that I were saying that wasn't okay was to another adult, right? You're you have minor allegations and the first thing we're going to talk about is me saying, "Maddie, if you don't call me back, I'm going to show up." which is something that we've done. If I didn't respond, you just showed up to my house. If you didn't respond, I just showed up to your house. So, you're right. This was a very toxic relationship. What else? Answer the good phone, Maddie. The fact that you choose to be radio silent after everything I told you. I could always just show up again. Sounds like my best shot at understanding the gravity of the situation. Don't act like you don't know. You must think I'm joking. Oh, this will be fun. See you soon, Maddie. I don't think I ever showed up. I was being really dumb. This was dumb. I should not have been I should have just let it go. That's why I'm saying I feel embarrassed by this. It's really dumb. I feel dumb. But again, this is after 2 years of dating and after [ __ ] months, multiple months, three to six months of lying about being cheated on. And then like once you were telling, "Hey, I did cheat on you." you still like were trying to be in my life coming over. I remember I was on Hinge and they're like, "Don't you think it's a little soon to be on Hinge? You [ __ ] cheated on me." But okay, I'm just saying like you have allegations of talking to minors and the first thing you do, which I called was going to be to flip it around on me, okay? >> And my physical safety. So yes, in 2021, I was going to talk to >> Let's see. How did I threaten your physical safety? This was to a friend. I said, "Have you seen my cheating ex? and he slapped the [ __ ] out of them for me. This was a tiny ass girl that I was joking around with. Clearly, it wasn't funny, but okay. That's threatening physical safety. Said, "Maddie, you better hope you never see my face again cuz I swear you haven't seen crazy yet." You haven't. Go eat a dick and die. This is what people are saying that I threatened their life. I threatened to kill them because I said go eat a dick and die. Come on, you guys. If you see me at Coachella, run because we bought Coachella tickets and then we weren't going together anymore. So if you if you see me there, you better run cuz I am coming up to you and we are having a [ __ ] conversation. I said, "We know it's what you're good at." Because they were actively running. They were like literally like they came to my house. No, dude. Oh my god. The last time we hung out, I hate to admit this. They literally like [ __ ] me in my car and then like just dipped and we didn't speak again. And I was losing my mind. I was not in a good place mentally. I just lost the person that I had been with. They were [ __ ] cheating on me. They ghosted me after this. I'm clearly not doing good. I had This is the moment I had to give my dad my because I did not I didn't trust myself to be safe with it. I'm good now. We have better CO mechanisms now. It's crazy this is online. >> Yes. >> But anyways, there had already been talk back in 2023 that legal action was threatened during the initial breakup fallout. Hi guys. So a day ago on just commented on her YouTube channel and she said that Matty herself dies and deceased. So I don't know. It's so obvious that Mati is stressed. Like we don't even know. Although the comments under that like people that reply to only dress like this does not mean anything. So honestly I don't know. I really don't know. This case is so crazy. And again like it's so obvious that Matthew is stressed. I I I'm so curious to know where this will all end, if that makes sense. Um, sorry I'm turning I'm using like my flash is because I cannot be asked to turn on my living room lights. And it's 10:10 p.m. or 10:12 p.m. on Friday. And I'm hoping this video comes out tomorrow. And I'm hoping to sleep by 12:00 a.m. That will be the earliest time I've slept this week. But let's see. But yeah, what do you guys think? Bella had implied that their defamation threats limited what they could say publicly at that time. And Bella also said that after they broke up that 2 months after their come back from court that Matty came to their house with a ninepage letter and was literally crying that they should take them back and Bella refused. I don't know if that's true. This is all coming from Bella's mouth. Didn't you cheat on your ex-girlfriend? No. I got cheated on with a minor and y'all still support them. Well, don't you have a domestic violence charge and a restraining order on you? No. We went to court and I won because it was [ __ ] She lied for TMZ money. And then when I started dating somebody new, she came to my DOOR WITH A NINE-PAGE LETTER BEGGING FOR ME BACK. BUT AGAIN, all this context, everything going on hovered in the background again when Marty responded. Even without detailed legal explanation, the suggestion of defamation just shaped how both sides spoke. What Matt's Tik Tok did not deeply address was the Amara timeline. They just said they started dating Amara after they had broken up with Bella. And then they used the example of like the two red cardigans and they said that there were two different cardigans. But anyways, the birth dates they public relationship began in 2024 when Amara was 19 and that part is documented. The debate centers on when they first met. Bella has said Amara was 16 at the time. So, if that timeline is accurate, it means Martin knew Amara as a minor while still in a relationship with Bella and the relationship became public once Amara turned 18. Imagine this with me, if you will. Okay, you're in a relationship with somebody and throughout the relationship, your partner is always talking about how this mutual friend of your guys is so pretty. But don't worry about it. They're just friends until you guys break up and now they're best friends. They're spending all their time together. Until you guys get back together and suddenly now they don't really hang out with that person anymore. It's just not really a thing until you guys break up again because getting back together with somebody never [ __ ] works. And now they're going getting coffee. They're going to parties. They're getting Airbnbs together and trying to gaslight you into thinking that you're weird for pointing it out. That's [ __ ] up, right? Matt's denial focused on cheating and rejected the brother accusations. It did not break down the timeline in detail and that left people just arguing over dates, screenshots, intent. There's even a new Matty that's come out and like, "Hi, I'm the other Matty. Follow me instead." Are you feeling sad because your favorite gay internet Maddie has some not so great allegations? Like, what? Do you have a Matty sized hole in your heart that you're looking to fill? Well, might I suggest me? I'm the other Maddie. And yes, that is my real name. It's not short for anything. That's what's on my birth certificate. I have a long-term age appropriate girlfriend. I attend protests and I'm an animal control officer, which means I get to help abused and neglected animals every day. I also have grade 2 brain cancer. I've undergone 20 rounds of chemotherapy and had my six brain surgery last year. And most importantly, I don't like. So in this difficult time, consider me, the other Maddie. I'm unproatic and I'll fill that gay Matty sized hole in your heart. I approve this message. >> At this stage, there are two competing stories. Bella says there was deception, there was inappropriate contact, and there was this pattern that started years ago. Marty says that the allegations are false and the timeline we amar remains the part that people continue to scrinize because even when something is technically legal, the context around when a collection began can still raise several questions. So now that leads us to part six, the paradox of Bella's credibility. Maybe the darkest part of this whole story is the irony. The person making the most serious claims about Marty is also someone a lot of people stopped trusting a long time ago. Only J has damaged their own credibility over years. The plagiarism accusations, the fabricated ready proof, the ghostritten apology, the failed promises to uplift black creators, the defensiveness, the ADHD explanations that many people felt cross into excuse territory. It was not just one mistake. It was literally a pattern. And when it comes to pattern, patterns stick. So when Bella first said back in 2023 that the breakup involved cheating and that minor were part of the story. People did not rally around them. Many people brushed it off. Some people even openly mocked it and a lot of the reaction boiled down to why would we believe you? That is the trap of losing credibility even if you tell the truth later. People remember the lies first but timelines do not care about popularity. Dates are date. Birth years are public and post have timestamps. screenshots they do circulate and when you line up ages, relationship launches and prior connections, you get a sequence that people can analyze without relying solely on Bella's word. The age gap itself is not illegal once both people are adults. The question people kept circling is the earlier connection. If it is true that Martian and Amara met at 16, maintained a connection and then entered a public relationship shortly after she turned 18, that raises ethical questions for many people, even if it falls within legal lines. If it is also true that there were other underage interactions, that becomes much more serious. At the same time, none of this has been in court and there's been no formal investigation really to the public. What exists right now is a mix of allegations, denial, screenshot, and timeline. The uncomfortable reality is this. Bella, y'all, it's time for me to take my medication. But anyways, the uncomfortable reality is this. Bella's reputation makes it easier for people to doubt them. Also, there was this receipt that came out that Matty also spoke to someone that was 14 years allegedly at the time. 14 years. And when this person said their age, Marty was like, "You're a child. I'm going to [ __ ] you up and I would likely give you daddy issues." >> That's so [ __ ] cute. Oh my god, stop smiling. I'm nice to you, but I'm not that nice to you. Stop blushing and get your get your head in the game, loser. Hey yo, laugh my ass off. Your expressions are priceless. Get the [ __ ] out. I'm so funny. You're hilarious. He He Michael Jackson. Wait, dude. How old are you? This is the first green flag that WE GET FROM MADDIE WESTBROOK SO FAR. YES. 18. DUDE, are you not? No. 16. Y'all, this girl is almost 15. I don't know if you could do math, but that means 14 years old. Said, "Shut the [ __ ] up. You're a child. You are a child." Oh my god. Holy Christ. No way. Okay, I just turned my camera for dramatic effect. So, they're still they're texting while they're on this like group call right now. Said, "I take 18 as a compliment. I look younger. How the [ __ ] do you think 18? Like where did you get that from? Said, "Well, you're in a Zoom call with the average age of probably 20." So, I got it from that. Well, yeah. Um, a child. I'm adopting you. Merry Christmas. Oh my god. Thank you. Of course. Did you do your homework? Am I parenting right? Yes. But I don't know. I'm probably going to [ __ ] you up. You're going to have daddy issues. Uh-oh. Damn. Okay. Never in my right mind would I be a 20-year-old telling a 14year-old girl that I'm going to [ __ ] them up and give them daddy issues. What were you what are you thinking, dude? Like what are you thinking texting a minor that? And you're like, "Oh, but like they acknowledge that they're a child and they're going to be in a parental role now. What are you What are you talking about?" You might think, "Oh, they must have stopped shortly after that, right? Right. Um, no. My mom is an eighth grade teacher. They still eat their boogers. Oh my god. No way. To be fair, I was in the eighth grade last year, so I can't say anything. But at least I'm not in middle school. Good. Worst three years of my life. Yeah, middle school sucks ass. Why are you talking to a minor like this, dude? Don't worry. I'll come back from the store with milk. I'm going to attack you for They're going to attack you for sing now. Hey, at least not everyone. I'm not the youngest out of everyone. The youngest is like 13 in eighth [ __ ] grade. Literal child. No weight. Oh my god. Honestly, the receipts hold up. Yeah. But the credibility of the messenger does not erase the content of the message. And that is what makes the situation so complicated. All of this is alleged. You see, as I'm putting it down, this has not been put in court. I love myself. I'm just reporting what is online. So now, let's go to conclusion. If there is anything this entire saga forces people to sit with, it is this uncomfortable truth. Credibility is currency and once you spend it recklessly, you do not get it back when you suddenly need it. Bella built a platform on being the smart one, the facts person, the one who supposedly knew better. Then they chipped away at their own trust, plagiarism, fabricated half apologies, deflection. Every time they choose ego over accountability, they weaken the one thing that would have mattered most later. And what was that? Belief. So when they eventually raised allegations that were far more serious than internet drama, the response was not concern. It was doubt. That is a consequence of a pattern. When people feel misled enough times that they stop giving you the benefit of the doubt even in situations where doubt should not be the default. At the same time, the story also shows something else. The messenger being flawed does not automatically make the message false. It just makes it harder to hear. The internet loves clean heroes and obvious villains. This situation does not offer that. It offers two people with influence who have messy histories and conflicting stories just playing out in public. There is also a bigger conversation and don't need all of this and that is about power about age gaps about what it means to meet someone as a mine and dates them once they technically are an adult about how online fame just shift different dynamics in ways that people do not fully understand. Legality is one line, ethics are another. The internet is starting to care more about that difference. And then there is a cost of living publicly. When relationships become content, breakups becomes episodes, allegations becomes monetized, response videos rack up views, and pain turns into engagement. The line between accountability and and performance just gets so blurry, and it gets so blurry so quickly, and everyone just claims that they're just telling their own truth. Everyone frames their side as context. the audience and people who watch these people, they're left trying to piece together the fragments of these people's private lives and then in turn it into a public spectacle. Maybe the lesson is not about who is right or wrong. Maybe it is about how quickly influence can distort reality and how fragile trust really is. Build it slowly, lose it quickly. Try to rebuild it while making explosive claims and you will learn just how heavy your past mistakes are. The internet does not forget, but it also does not investigate. It reacts so quickly. And in stories like this, reaction often arrives long before there is any resolution. So guys, that brings us to the end of this video. Thank you guys so much for watching. If you watched it to the end, I really do appreciate each and every one of you. Y'all, I hope this video makes it out this weekend because let me tell you, give you guys updates about my life. Okay, so you all know I don't know if I told obviously I said one of my videos that I had surgery and I had this surgery earlier this year and everything was going okay. I'm taking my medication. I'm listening to the doctor until like on Thursday last week I'm feeling like pain here. I will swallow my cell but I'm feeling like serious pain or whatever and all. And Thursday it started Thursday but I thought okay maybe like it's just me in my head and Thursday my girlfriend came over to see me and then Friday came over to see me. Saturday was Valentine's Day. I remember Valentine's Day and I was trying to wear my clothes. I was like maybe I should go to A&E. A& is like emergency department. I maybe I should go to A&E. And I was like, you know what? I'm not going to go to A&E cuz I have planned this Valentine's Day and I was so excited. Sunday it happened or whatever. And I was like, yeah, I cannot ignore this any longer. Monday morning, I went to A&E. When I went to A&E, I told them I was like, I just had surgery and my chest was like hurting and it was mirroring like the same place in my back if that makes sense. So I go, they take my blood, they do an ECG, and when they do the ECG, nobody's attending to me. I went there like around 7:30 and I warn I'm still there. Nobody has called me. And I go to the nurse. I'm like, I don't know what's going on. Blah blah blah blah blah. And I go to another nurse and he's like, "A doctor's attached to your name." And he was so [ __ ] rude. And again, I was working on a different case, which that was what I was meant to edit. That's what I was meant to edit. I didn't even think I was going to put out a video this week. I'm I'm going to explain. So I'm still working on why the Republican women look women look like that. And I'm also working on Pearl Davis. So literally my week has been a lot. So that's what I was just working on and everything. So I'm like I have things I need to do. I need to go home. I need to like research and do all of this. And then I go home because I'm like I've been there. When I went only 10 people when I left we were like 50 people and there were people on the line waiting to be checked in for A&E if that makes sense. And I'm like literally I'm going because obviously my case is not serious. Yeah, my case is not serious. That's why they've not called me yet cuz if my case is serious, people should be rushing to put me inside. So I'm literally in my house like on my laptop and everything. And then I get a call, a no caller ID and I suspected it was from the hospital. And the doctor was like where are you? I said I'm home. He's like why are you home? Come here now. Like leave whatever you're doing and come here now. How soon can you make it? I like I can make it in 10 minutes. He was like come here now. So he told me how to go and everything. So I went I used the what do you call it? I used my lip gloss drips. So basically I went here I went to the hospital and when I went um I called the doctor and I went to see the doctor and the doctor was like we need to put a pink handle on your hand because you need to go into a CTIC scan. You need to put a contract cuz we need to see what's inside your body because I suspect that you have a blood clot on your lungs. And I was like what? I'm not going to lie. I was lowkey scared cuz blood clots is not something you should joke with. I'm like, "Blood clot on my lungs?" They're like, "Yeah, we suspect there's a blood clot on your lungs." So, I'm like, "Okay." So, they're checking my hands. The nurse comes trying to put a canula. Um, she can't find like my vein. They can't find my vein. And I'm so confused. I'm like, "What? They cannot find my vein. They put here. They put here. They can't find my vein." And then she calls the doctor. The doctor comes try put can't find my vein. And they brought an ultrasound to see like my vein. Yo, it's so creepy. I saw my vein in real time. You see your vein and your arteries and arteries are like under the vein and all of that. And I'm like looking at the screen and I'm like it was giving me stranger things like VCna. You know when Vecna those things like when he turns into himself is it veca? When he turns into himself that's literally what he looks like and I was so creeped out. In case you guys do not know me, I do not like pain. I know I have all these tattoos but I don't like pain or whatever. I don't like injections. I don't like um syringe. And during my surgery, I got like they're always finding trouble finding my vein. And I got stabbed like over 20 times in the hospital cuz they were trying to find my vein. So it was like PTSD. It was literally like PTSD. But anyways, I put my hand, they now find in this my left hand. And then they were like, "Okay, we'll put the canola." So I go with the doctor to the city scan. They ask for my name, everything, my address and whatever just to confirm that I'm the p person. And then I go into the city scan. This is my first time inside of that thing. I go inside there. I don't know if it's an MRI scan. I don't know. I do not even know. And I go inside and the guy inject cuz I had the canola in my hand. So, he injects the blue contrast in my hand and it's so [ __ ] painful. I'm like, "Oh my god, it's so painful." And he was like, "Oh, it's meant to be painful." Whatever. So, I go inside the machine. I'm claustrophobic. I'm screaming and I'm like, "Get me out of here. I'm anxious. I'm having like a literal panic attack." And then the woman come, she's like, "What's going on?" I'm like, "I'm scared." Blah blah. I was like, "Please, I need someone here with me and she's like, "Yeah, nobody can be there with you." And then I'm there. Then the machine is saying, "Breathe in, breathe out, blah blah blah blah." And then they told me to keep my hand like this. I keep my hand like this and I feel my hand like thump like tum. The pain is so much. And I'm screaming, "My hand hurts. My hand hurt." I'm sure they're tired of me. They obviously tired of me. I'm like, "My hand hurts so much." And I'm crying. And then they come out, they see my hand. They were like, "Oh my god, the canola broke inside your hand and my vein popped and my hand is bulging like this, like big. And my hand is so big and I am so I'm literally crying." So they do whatever and thankfully they were able to like remove it, remove the canal from my hand and everything still hurts. Oh my god. This was before yesterday. So I go back to the doctor and the doctor is like, "Yeah, you have to come back tomorrow for us to do it, but I'm going to give you like anti blood thinner medication so you can take it so that in case you have blood clots because they wanted to be sure that it was blood clots." But I think from the ECG scan and also when they did the blood test they saw something in my blood that was higher than what it should have been and he was confused why that happened like 6 weeks after surgery because he was like if this happened like immedately you finish surgery would have made sense but six weeks after surgery is like very very questionable and all of that and I'm like okay cool whatever tell me why I got back the next day which was yesterday and yo they were looking for my vein they didn't find it obviously they could not use the sound cuz when I woke up okay so yesterday the day that this had happened. Obviously, I'm stressed and all and I checked on Google. It's called extravagation or something like that. And then they said keep your hand in an elevated in an elevated way in a way that is above your heart. And that's what I'm doing. And I'm just doing that. Obviously, I could not do it on my laptop. I was just watching Two Broke Girls because I was so stressed because of what had happened. And when it's like almost time to sleep, I carried my hand up and I felt my hand was so heavy and I looked at it and my whole hand is big. It's so big that even my this was tight and I just broke down. I started crying. I sent a voice note to my girlfriend. I'm like my heart is big. I was crying y'all. I was crying because when I went home I was crying like crying makes me so tired. When I went home, I was crying that when everything was like that day, I really cried. I cried when I left the hospital because I was getting irritated. I cried when I got went left the hospital and I came and I was on my laptop. I had just finished crying when when I was like, "Okay, let me be on my laptop and do something." I cried when I came back and realized that my hand literally what I never thought would ever happen to me happened to me and I cried when I seen that my hand was I was like what is going on? So I am literally crying. my hand. I think it's increasing. What the [ __ ] So, when I go to bed, I put like a pillow and then I like hopefully sleep like that. But obviously, I did not. I turned over to that side. And when I woke up, it was bigger. My hand was bigger. Um, they told me to go to the hospital at 9:00 a.m. So, I went to the hospital at 9:00 and the doctor was like, "Don't worry, it's going to be fine. It's going to be fine." And I was like, "Is it?" I was started googling is it going to cause lympadema? Would it lead to amputation? The surface you can feel your fingers and everything and I went on Tik Tok and this girl had exactly the same thing that I did have the whole blue contrast and how her vein popped and everything. But the thing about her was that she the the liquid still spread to her body. So, she still did the test. But me, I couldn't because all the liquid they pumped was literally in my hand. My hand is still big, girl. I can't even really show you guys. But there's like a difference between my left arm and my right arm. But anyways, I went to the hospital. They tried looking for my vein. They did not find my vein. They brought the ultrasound. They checked here, injected here. They injected. Okay. Yes. But like I my veins were just like blocked. So they put the ultra the injection the syringe inside. When they put it inside, they're trying to like remove it like to see if they can bring it out. This other hand, they tried to put it inside and they tried to flush it with water and it refused to flush. So again, I have like a very big hand and then because it refused to flush, it refused to like flush. I could see where the other water was stuck. I don't know if that was it or whether was my head and my hand was now like bigger. Y'all, I was crying. So I had to wait for like two more hours. So during those two more hours, that's when I started in the hospital. I started like I got went with my laptop. So I just started like writing um this case. Just started writing and also like watching like lots of Tik Tok and just formulating my notes and everything. And then the doctor was like, "Okay, come now. It's time." Cuz that was like around 10. So like around 1, 12:25, the doctor was like, "Yeah, come. Let's try your vein again. Make sure you drink a lot of water." So I drank a lot of water. I drank cuz I carry my water bottle with me everywhere except I'm holding a small bag, but I take water with me literally everywhere. So um I hold I drink water and I go and sit down and he's like, "We have to cuz when they check the ultrasound, they seen one vein that is so big and he's like, "We have to use that vein." But the thing is we have to use like a big long canula because that vein is thick and it needs a big long canula. And he told me this is going to hurt. There is no two ways about it. You can scream all you want but it's going to hurt you. And I was like he was like yeah. I was like he shouldn't have told me that. He was like I believe in transparency. This is for your health. You're young. Do you want to die? I said no. He said then you have to keep your hand as straight as possible. I was like okay keep checking. So he was checking was like oh I think I can see a small vein. Let's try cuz that's when I needed different types of color of canola meant different things like blue canola, pink canola, and green canola. Green canola is the biggest one. Blue canola is the smallest and pink is like the medium. So he showed me the difference in size from the pink and the green. And oh my god, I could swear it was like a whole 1.5 in. I thought I'm exaggerating. But anyways, I keep my hand and he sees one. Okay, let's try the small canula for this. He tries it. He tries to bring out blood and he was like, "Yeah, this is a dead end." and you put the ultrasound and he's like, "Yeah, see it's meant to show black, but it's just that it's been like it's been blocked because they've been trying to poke everything." He tries here, it did not work. He tries his hand. Yo, I'll do my nails soon. I'm waiting for my nail bed to heal. He tries this one, the same thing. And then he brings the green canula, the green syringe, and he puts it in. And I'm screaming. Oh my god. I'm screaming so loud. I'm screaming and screaming and screaming. And then um he's like I was like [ __ ] [ __ ] He said he can cuss as much as he can. And not only am I screaming, I'm crying too. Like I'm seriously crying. All this while they're punching me, I'm crying. The first time before I went on the break, I one um doctor, he said I can hold his hand. So I'm holding his hand like so tight. But the nurse, she's she's a Nigerian auntie. When she said I can hold her hand, when I held her hand, she started screaming. She was like, "Let me hold your hand instead." Cuz it was so painful, y'all. It was so painful. So he puts the green and then he's using the ultrasound to like look at my vein and my vein was like moving. So he was literally using the needle. Oh my gosh. I do trigger warning needle. He needle to follow my vein. Yo, I was crying. I was screaming. And guess what? It was a dead end. He brought it out. He was like, "Yeah, there's nothing we can do." So, um, they gave me all the medications of the things they were suspecting was wrong with me. And then they said I should come another they've given me another time that I should come to do the test again because he's like he's not going to rule it out. He said that's what we have to do to monitor the whole situation. So I've been given like antithes. I've also been given like medication in case I have like chest infection or like just things and I feel much better since like from the medication but I have to take it every time like my alarm just rang now. It's time there's a medication I have to take four times a day evenly. So literally I'm going to go and take it. But yo, it is not. I'm not going to lie. I don't like the hospital. I don't like even the surgery alone that I did. That was the first time I ever put my body to do something like that through something like that. Cuz priorities I never slept in the hospital. I never taken drip. And this is me taking drip. Taking a morphine after my surgery. Like morphine just puts you to sleep. And yo, like this year is just February and I've been stabbed like over like 50 times. And I'm not even exaggerating. But I'm so grateful to be alive. And yeah, I just wanted to give you guys that update on my life. Like this part of my hand is like big. I don't know if I should show you guys, but it's reducing compared to yesterday. I can see it's like really reducing. Maybe I'll put a video if I want to. If I don't put it, that's because I later changed my mind. But yeah, but thank you guys so so much. I really do um appreciate each and every one of you. Okay. Um kindly like hopefully I've earned your subscription. Kindly like, share, subscribe if you care, if you love me, cuz Kiki, do you love me? Are you okay? Thank you guys so much for your constant love and your constant support. And I told you guys in my last video that I will keep saying this until I take this hair out. I made my hair myself. It took me 3 days anyways. But thank you guys so much. I really do appreciate you for stopping by and watching this video. Until next time. Bye-bye.

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